Humour

When I was first diagnosed I felt almost like a celebrity. The flowers, fruit, books, sms's and so many family and friends coming around to share their sympathy, others their hope and some their support.

Its almost as if you died somehow when people come and say their goodbyes and make it their duty to see you, as if they are clearing the conscience. Almost ticking you off their to do list. I never thought I would be on someone's to do list so I really do feel rather flattered.

People never know what to say, so they say all those things that they think someone in my condition would want to hear. So there are no jokes, silly talk and inspiration in any form, has completely evaded them. I am left with the sympathy and the " you are going to die look"

Somehow I began my comicall part of this journey when even I thought I had in fact died. I was extremely ill and there were lots of people at my bedside. I woke up in a daze from all the medication and in fact asked loudly. " Have I died?" and indeed the reaction was one of dismay and sadness. So began my journey into the humour of a life with cancer.

Let me say at the outset that this in not mocking of the very serious illness but just helping myself including everyone else cope with it just a little better. For at times humour is the only thing that you have, when all positivity and sense of hope is lost.

So whilst I travel and I discover the humour and the comedy in the way I and others deal with my illness and all that it affects.

My favourite one" If you are too open minded, your brains will fall out"