relearning

I sit on the sofa and watch the rain outside longing to trample in the puddles and shake the water of winter off my coat again. I tell myself that soon I will be strong enough that I must just persevere a little longer. That this time the craniotomy tooks its toll. All the side effects the dr's thought i would get I got.

I read something inspiring and it goes" forget about all the reasons why something maynot work. You only need to find one good reason why it will" its funny how when you have to relearn everything that you find out all the things you have been doing wrong or taking for granted! that your whole life you have been living on autopilot and now suddenly everything could not be more clearer!

you discover how many muscles you use to walk, sit, drive, talk and eat. How hard it is to smile. the simplest thing in the world you may think but yet the most challenging.

so like a child you start to focus on the things that you can do and you keep re-assuring yourself that you have come a long way.

then someone comes along and tells you all the reasons you should give up, and you start thinking well maybe I am wasting my time. That voice inside just wont let you quit it says come'on one more step when all you want to do is give up.

So you persevere a little longer and the results are great! maybe you cant yet doeverything but most things are good enough. So what if your parking skills need working... the greater population wont notice anyway or care as much as you think:)