dealing with changes

the curtains are closed blocking out
the light
the windows are closed shutting out
the noise from traffic
the room is filled with nothing but
the sound of emptiness and
its almost deafening

I cover my ears blocking out
the noise
I am still
allowing my rambling thoughts to be heard but
there is only silence except
the noise of the
emptiness

it enfolds me
it crushes me
its noise is too much

so

I uncover my ears
I open the curtains
I let the light in
I open the windows
I let the noise of the traffic in

I am still
allowing my rambling thoughts to be heard
but there is no rambling
only thoughts flowing and
the room is filled with everything
but emptiness and
the sound of its silence.